Early morning ramble

I didn't really know how to express the way that I was feeling tonight, and so I decided that maybe I would just write it out. I feel so empty right now. I feel like I think I know how everything should play out in my life; everything that I want, and then in an instant it all falls apart. My entire life has been an ascent to the top of one mountain just to fall off the edge into a valley where I have to start over again onto another. Sometimes I feel like I can't go on; like I'm just playing a game and putting a mask on, making people think one thing about me but inside being so completely different. It's 12:32 a.m. and I have to be up at 6 a.m. for work. I'm listening to Michael Gungor...and just reflecting on my life. I feel like no matter how low I feel, I can always run to God who "wraps me in his arms". I have a God that who even though I am weak He is made strong. I feel like I could fall off he edge of the world but it wouldn't matter because no matter how bad it gets or how empty I can feel, God will catch me as I fall. He will be faithful to his end of the deal...always. I know he has an incredible plan for my life that complete exceeds every thought I have ever had regarding what will happen. He is going to do something in and through me that is beyond anything I could ever imagine. I refuse to settle for something that's less than prosperous, with a hope and a future according to Him.


Where I am weak, he is made strong, and therefor
I must become less, and He must become more.


It's the cry of my heart that my life glorify Your name.